Dear Baz // 7 months

  Dear Sebastian, I keep hearing stories from parents with newborns who sleep through the night – even as early as one month old. This concept is completely foreign to me since the longest you’ve ever slept is probably 6 hours straight. On a good night you’re asleep by 8, up for a quick nosh … Continue reading

In sickness

After a fairly routine afternoon walk I drank a cup of water. My stomach instantly unsettled and felt as though the water was a pile of stones sitting firmly in my belly. Solid and heavy. I fought the idea of getting sick for several hours, but after the baby went to bed the thought and sight of food suddenly pushed me over the edge and I clung to the porcelain throne on and off for the rest of the night. Continue reading

Dear Baz // 6 Months

Dear Sebastian, As i write this you are napping (finally) in your stroller parked in our kitchen, after we took a nice long walk in the frosty chicago weather. generally speaking, you are not a good napper, but this ones creeping up over the 1 hour point so things are looking up. this morning was … Continue reading

suck on that, NYP.

i got a request, thanks to a facebook friend who i worked with in PR, to do a story on post-Sandy babies.  edgar and i had planned to try to conceive in October–it really had nothing to do with the hurricane. but the prospect of being in the papes, like the newsies say, was appealing, … Continue reading

Good morning, HULKSMASH.

  7:48 am …things are going swimmingly. The baby is fed and dressed and playing happily while I finish eating and packing up for work. Jason asks if he can get a ride to work. “Sure!” I say happily. Bossman is out so its no big deal if I’m a little late. Time to get … Continue reading

Hormones are Stupid

I’ve never been happier than I was the weeks just following the birth of my son. Everything came pretty easy. Delivery was shockingly quick, breastfeeding worked and the baby was thriving. I was filled with a euphoria like I’d never felt. I laughed like I haven’t laughed in years. Even in a profoundly sleep deprived state, life was bliss. The autumnal days were long and sunny and punctuated with the intoxicating newborn aroma. There were rough days for sure. In particular I remember dreading nights when in knew I was facing many wake ups, but then the sun would come up nice and early and I would be eager to start another day. In general I only had brief moments of anxiety, usually over the fact that things were so perfect something was bound to go wrong.
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Dear Baz // 5 months

Dear Baz // 5 months

Dear Sebastian, You’re five months now and I am in awe of how quickly time passes. Every week seems to bring on new changes. You’ve lost some of that “baby” look on your face and sometimes I’m startled by how much you look like a little boy. You’re quite the smiley guy and I’ve gotten … Continue reading

It’s been a good year

I was all ready to post about Sebastian being 5 months today, but then Jason surprised me with this video this morning for my 30th birthday and I just can’t not share this.

Making a Change

“Many of us who aren’t farmers or gardeners still have some element of farm nostalgia in our family past, real or imagined: a secret longing for some connection to a life where a rooster crows in the yard.” – Barbara Kingsolver “Animal, Vegetable, Miracle” Before I went to culinary school I read a lot of … Continue reading


i’m about to put aside all sarcasm and other tools i use to prevent myself from being emotionally honest and say, being pregnant can seriously suck a big one sometimes. i never thought i would actually have a pregnant glow.  i was shocked when i read that was a real thing and not just something … Continue reading